Why can't I simply ignore you?

This question had been lingering on my thoughts since the day we've got things done. I've been mentioning too many goodbyes and moving on, yet at the end of the day, I still end up noticing how you have been. I just can't keep up with myself. I've been trying and up to now, I'm still trying my very best to get things done. I don't want to feel anything anymore. Trust me. This feeling makes me feel so sick and stupid. Why does my heart keeps on pre-entering my motives and plans of simply getting over? I wonder myself. But, it seems like at the end of each and every day, this question keeps on getting into my system. And soon, it looks like I'm gonna get used to it.
I never stopped dreaming that one day, when you walk by me, I won't feel anything anymore. I never stopped hoping that one day I'll get over things as if nothing happened. But, for now, this question slowly kills me.
"Why oh why can't I simply ignore you?"